Look at me! Right now! How can you not notice me?!
I’m here, after all. On the internet! Ranting and raving and totally wrapped up in myself.
I’m a narcissist.
I used to joke with my friends that I was “the Center of the Universe.” And now, I’m acting like it.
Shame on me.
Part of me wants to quit counseling, because it feels like all I do is sit and talk about me. Granted, she’s very good at bringing it around to what to do about me and my stupid self, but I still hate it.
I started this blog to write about my family, in the days before Facebook exploded, and everyone was on it.
What has it become? A platform for me to talk about myself while I work on myself…
Yet, how do I get beyond this? I will fully admit that “What about me?!” is a thought that occurs to me at least once a day. Probably more. If I’m being generous with myself.
I want to be better. I want to be healthy. I want to see needs in others, and be able to fill them. I can’t though. Not yet.
I hope I can get there soon, because this sucks.
I’m tired of myself.
Grace & Peace,