I am going to be taking a break from the computer for awhile, aside from email and the occasional blog post. I have allowed my self-control in regards to the computer to lapse almost entirely, and have seen my home and routine far too disrupted for my family’s good. I have been lazy more often than I’ve been industrious, excusing myself with the smallest of reasons.
I just wanted to share with you all that God is moving in a very specific way in my life right now, and the computer has gotten in the way. He needs me on the front lines praying, and digging into His word for myself. He wants me to cook my own spiritual meals, if you will, rather than eating the leftovers of others.
I have been wondering why the Lord has very clearly shut the door on my attending anything other than plain ol’ church on Sundays. Turns out, He wants me to put into practice what I’ve learned over the last couple of years about studying His Word.
You know what He wants me to study? He wants me to study studying. If that makes sense.
I have had a Thompson Chain-Reference Bible since I was 17, which I’ve never used for the purpose it was made for. This morning, I was browsing the study helps in it, asking God to show me where He wanted me to start, and came across the topic “Study of God’s Word”. Attached to it is knowledge and wisdom. Something clicked inside me, and I knew what He’d been asking me to do.
So, I’m going to do it. One day at a time, I’m going to learn from the Lord Himself. And I’m nervous. I still feel a bit like I don’t know what I’m doing, but I assume that’s why I’m starting with the subject of study. God wants to teach me how to go about it on His terms, and not according to any pre-conceived notions I may have about the whole thing.
If you don’t see me for awhile, don’t worry about it. Like I said, I’ll probably try to post at least once a week or so, to update everyone on life here at the Faery Inn. But, I’m learning a lesson in self-control, and I have to start somewhere.
Thanks for understanding, my lovely readers!
“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.”
~ Proverbs 3:5-7 (NIV)
Pray for me as I start this new phase of my walk with Jesus. Thanks!
PS: For those of you praying for my sisters – keep it up please. Things are coming to a crisis right now.